I know, how can any adult claim to be bored? Especially one with a new baby that requires 88 000% of my attention? It's easy, actually, because I just claimed it.
Despite the obvious time and dedication taking care of Hazel requires, which is most definitely a 24/7 type of job, I have gotten a surprising amount of stuff done. Since she's been born I've knitted a blanket, a baby sweater, two scarves, two hats, a meatball costume, and I'm working on another blanket. I've screen printed on onesies, made new recipes, and sewed a felt cake. Almost all our Christmas gifts are catalogued, bought, wrapped, and boxed in the appropriate mailing containers. I reorganized our budget and bought & set up a bookcase for the baby. I've cleaned out two storage closets, plus went through and donated a ton of my clothes and shoes, then boxed up the maternity wear for the next go-round, whenever that will be. I keep a postpartum journal and a baby journal, plus have a scrapbook for her. I also take, edit, print, send out, and upload way more baby photos than maybe I should. I've read a few books on motherhood, feminist theory, and reread every Jennifer Weiner book ever written.
How can I be bored, you might ask? Doing all that stuff is partly fun, definitely fulfilling, but it's pretty mundane. I guess I'm so used to being super crazy busy that the last two years have been just…lame. Limp. Laissez-faire. I'm very happy that I got married and had a baby in that time, but I feel derailed as far as my career and creative avenues are concerned. Amos was saying that as you get older you're more likely to feel that way, which makes sense – if you go for a family your career will naturally lag for a while, and vice versa.
Also I really miss my family and friends that feel like family. I mean, I missed you guys before I had the baby and all, but I just couldn't imagine how difficult it would be after I had her. Anyone who's moved away from home will understand what I'm saying.
Now that I've gotten all that off my chest I feel better!! I've been trying this ridiculously New Age positive thinking thing, and I think it's helping. Well maybe, I'll let you know.
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